And So I Go On

Collaboration with composer Jake Runestad

 

My lovely one

though you are gone
taken from me
I cannot leave you
I am not free

I burn in snow
and thirst in rain
there is no sea
that can drown my pain

but you would want me to live
and love again

and so I got on

always
wherever you are
lovely one

My lovely one

I am gone
taken from you
mine in your suffering
mine in your joy

my snow will kiss you
pouring down my love
there is no sea
that can drown your pain

I want you to live
and love again

and so I go on

always
wherever you are
lovely one


Note from composer Jake Runestad:
When Germán Aguilar passed away unexpectedly in the summer of 2014, it was a huge loss to our world. Germán had a warm, kind personality and a love for life, teaching, and the people around him – especially his fiancé Jon Talberg. After Germán’s death, Jon was cleaning out Germán’s wallet and found the only card inside was mine. I had given it to Germán when we met in January of 2014. Jon soon contacted me and asked if I would write a piece of music in memory of Germán – I was honored to do so.
 
I hope this music captures an element of Germán’s life as an amazing man and lover of music. Also, I hope the music will serve as a form of healing to those who experience it and who continue to suffer from this immense loss. Todd Boss, the amazing poet who wrote an original text for this work, beautifully captured the message we want to leave with you: “And so I go on, always, wherever you are, my lovely one.”